Heroes.

::grins::  I know, some title.  But, it's relevant.  From the beginning of this show, I have loved it.  It's a show about people that discover that they have abilities.  Now, for me, this is a terrific premise, it brought me to the show...and before the six week hiatus (those bastards!), I was great, but in that time, with so much going on in my world, I feel as if part of me doesn't care. 

::scoffs::  I know that all of this seems superficial, but I really want to care.  To put my care into the characters of the show, to feel the excitement when a new revelation presented itself and, really, to demonstrate that I can care about something.  This point is the hub of the matter, I feel like EVERYTHING that resembles something odd or different to me, or just even caring about anyone (character-wise) but myself is wrong...and I don't know why!!! 

God, I just want to stop thinking about it all.  I want to just be, without thinking if it's going to benefit me or not.  I am NOT about myself; that aspect is a given.  When will someone understand that?  I just want to care, and feel, even if for character development and resolution.